fence and handrail

here i am sitting on an office chair, typing.
it's been already 2 years passed since i joined the company.
and the years just gone without remains.

blaming long work hours
trying to think something else not work.
plan to go to gym or yoga classes.
do something crative when not at work.

one half collgue half friend leaves the company at the end of this month.
she will move to france.
she has reasons to leave.
i always look for those and hold them, squeeze them and never let them go.
i just swallow them.
melt in my stomach.

once i dreamed to be someone famous.
like my friend's dad who comes out on google search.

someone with some archievement.