wrong

i don't cry till my eye out any more

i'm sure there is something wrong

i got a spam mail

i got a spam mail
from who seems to be an italian
without the subject
i only saw the firstline showing a link

of course no attempt to click
even wonder what the link is
but i found
deep in my mind
i wondered for half of a second
what if.

what if it is a some important mail from someone important
which might change my life

then for the next half a second
i wondered why do i even imagine that i know would never happen
where this tiny teeny hope comes from
what made me to dream of this thing
and why don't i believe this

i found an answer in the next few minutes
it's because i'm living where one is supposed to believe that some impossible things might happen and change his or her life
there are dust size of hope which will prove itself its fakeness
may be too soon
but still there are.

i don't know where is more cruel to be
with lying hopes
or with none